Psalm 139 For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Whether or not you’re righteous or unrighteous you will never escape God. From every angle of life God’s presence is everywhere. It flows beyond our understanding of ‘heaven’ and ‘hell’. So, whether you’re unsaved…you will still have to face God’s judgment. If you’re saved, you’ll face God’s judgment in your life. So, how can we ever think that we can live in sin and not face the penalties of it? Granted, the saved have it better than the unsaved. We can offer up true repentance and turn back to serving God and learn to rely on His ability to see into our hearts that we truly are serving Him with our best attempts at keeping ourselves pure. But, there is hope for the unsaved too. They too can repent, and turn from their ways. However, if they choose not to…they will face the ultimate consequence at the end. Being slain by God is not a term I would take lightly…You can say it’s just phrasing of the Psalm, but it has greater value too. It’s a curse upon the people who are giving false judgments upon the righteous man. They will face God, and He will slay them in the end.
I’ve been reading the passages about Absalom’s rebellion, in second Samuel, and how David reacted in that situation. I wonder if this psalm itself is not written from that time frame, because it illuminates the pain of a man who has been viciously torn apart by rumors and wickedness…
It makes me question what I am, in a Christian sense. To go along with this frame of mind, there is a book out there called A Tale of Three Kings: A Study in Brokenness that gives insight into being a “Saul” “David” or “Absalom”. It looks a lot like what is written in 139, but in expansive form. It deals with the heart, and what lies at the very core of the heart—and how we perceive our relationship with God. It also illustrates how we may or may not deal with specific situation of testing that God places in our lives. It forces the question “do we completely trust God?”. Psalm 139 is definitely someone who is completely trusting in God because he willingly submits to God searching his heart. How open am I to receiving that kind of correction? Who am I more like in those instances—Saul, David, or Absalom? I desire to be like David, to live with the correction of God openly and willingly if there is fault to be found. If there is no fault to be found, then those who make the accusations will face their own consequences by the hand of God. Thus, because the Lord God knows all, and is in and around all…we ought to just come clean from the get go because He’s the only one with all the power to change our hearts and redeem us from the false accusations. But like everyone, I find it hard to be open 100% with God. However, that is the need of repentance. It means we’re not perfect and we do not find ourselves bound by the rules of perfection and demanded legalism. But we are sinful, and willing to change and have God search our hearts for the sin within and cleanse us from it. That is what it means to be a David. We are redeemed, we are not under the false accusations–God knows our hearts, and as long as we allow him to rule them…He will be the one to do justice, not us.
But there is also the pointed fact that God, no matter what our messy self is looking like, He already knew these situations would arise in our lives and that we a supreme confidence and hope in that he already knew us. We should be able to approach this Amazing and all knowing God with our hearts confident in Him, not ourselves. God is the ultimate person who is in charge and we have the option of seeking His solutions rather than our own, if we can get past the messy us.